Uummm, Testing,testing, 1, 2, 3... And Random Gibberish

Man... this is weird... Haven't written any blog for months... let's see... I always start with: This is Rizalinium speaking from the heart of an innocent little boy who just denies growth to its physical being but add the intelligence of its oversized brain. This is my long lost letter when I have indulged in materials and worldly rewards God has given. This is the first and it will never have a last. it will be the first from the beginning and the the first from the last. Ok, what to write? Well, I'm a 2nd yar student in UPM doing Bachelor of Environmental Science a 3 -year course which is good. Then, I had a girlfriend, then I dumped here, then days later I found a new girlfriend. Then, I dumped her. Now, I just want to live alone. I feel I spent too much giving artificial love to a total different gender of a stranger, then, leave her. Not because I'm gay or anything. I have what you call... fear of commitment. To commit to a serious relationship where the woman gets serious and talks about "the future". Yeah, I'll give her the future. There will be flying cars, teleporters, laser guns, etc... Viva la miseria... Maybe I'm not fit to be someones' partner. Still, like always from the blast from the past, I'm still an unpaid counsellor and the shoulder to cry or weeep on. My ears listen to stuff gossiping girls are dying to listen. Sadly, they won't, torturing me will be the only way. Haha... So, this is a totally random thingy of a blog. I have a knack in putting three dots in every sentence, and being witty and sarcastic is my norm and specialty. It's just me. I write thanxxx with triple x just because that I like XXX, if you know what I mean, but I myself don't know what the hell XXX mean. Why the letter X/ Why not other letters. Why discriminate the letter X that is doomed to carry sick, filthy humanly perverted pleasures? Anything sexually related, it needs and X. Even sex is speeled with an X. i also hate when people have sex, other people gets turned on. Is it me, or porn is just the same act acted by different people doing the same position which I've countless time till I get bored of watching it. We are all humans. Get married for Gods sake. Bang your wife every night, I could care less. Porn is a wasteful entertainment that is raking money of the idiots and the twisted. Unless they are other ways in having sex than the conventional way, then that is excluded. Anything else, just keep to the "key and lock" method. Your fetish is your secret, That 's my motto. Anything else? Less be known, the relationship with our neighbours are deteriorating. Keep your head up and be careful when encountering with the people. Life is like a mountain of shit waiting for you to raze it down make it fall to the others. That is what's happening to the world. Environmentally speaking, the world right now is really in the brink of impossible to save. The terms ignorance and individualism is a sickness that grows inside ourselves. We don't give a damn, we only give a shit on materials and money. All we care is making lotsa dinero and keep fucking the world, and woman (Couldn't resist ,mate.) Religious rivalry is escalating every year. Peace talks is like the epitome of grasping air with our hands. Which means, impossible. Unitl the End Of Days we will fight each other. The Devil feeds hatred and malevolence to human beings. We as the Generation Of The End Of The World, Gen Z I lki eto call it because Z is the last word in the alphabet, are being tested with the hardest test in the whole wide world. We seem to forget that we ARE in a test. We are blind to see why God sent us here in this world. We must live by rules. One thing I hate. the phrase "Rules are meant to be broken". Why the flying fuck would people make up the complicated rules in the first place? To create peace and order. If you stick by that saying , then you defy God. God created the Rules of the World, and you want to break it as we have promised to abide the law? the Word of God is The Law. The Qur'an is the Book of Law. Still standing up for that stupid saying? Next, oh yeah, I'm going overseas this holiday. Some mobility program to learn the learning curve of the Uni in one country and we need to know their environmental stand. Two weeks, not tha elated or over-happy coz this is a business trip, not pleasure, which I really need this time of dire. maybe I'll go to Thailand, or Korea. It depends, I can turn down the offer too. Wished that I have the brain power to memorise all the things I've learned in my lifetime. Then, I wouldn't feel too dumb to converse with people. Well, Like always, I'll end this entry with " I'll just back off for you to read this and think about the Life you had gone through. Never say never, but that is just too overrated by now. People shuld find suitable saying sthat can be implicated by the ever changing generation. Nuff said. Salaam and good luck for your Final Exam. Do your BEST!