It's Only Love, And That Is All...

This is Rizalinium speaking, playing something dangerous with the word LOVE. To be frank, what happens when you have two lovely, beautiful women, in love with the same guy without them knowing it. ( Hypothetically speaking........... AS IF!!) What makes me sick is that I just want to be left alone. Not that I'm proud, but I just want to find the right one. The one that brings eternal happiness. The one that has lock that fits my key. (No, not THAT thing your thinking about, dirty bastards/bitches.) I need that sinking feeling, porcupine in my stomach, the feeling of bravery in undertaking commitment. What has happened to the bravery on the battlefield in killing my inner demon. What good is it to fight the evil forces withtin and outside this world if I can't even have a steady relationship and playing with one's heart. I just don't get it. Wish it was circumstantial scenario like it was planned so that I don't have to go through the same process of loving again and again. First cut is the deepest, and so too the first break up. Now it only feels like you accidently smashed a cup, guilty  just for a moment. It has become a bit boring this game of love. What I have done wrong is that treating it as a GAME, not taking it seriously. Why can't I be someone serious in a relationship. Why do I have to be so dominant and stubborn in a relationship. Is it because I treat her like a human being, rather than treating her like a woman? Is it because my brain is fixed to the point that is has become irreversible when saying woman needs love and they need someone to love and continue their growth of family. Sex is not the problem, but how to treat a woman like a gentleman is the key to a happy couple life. Be nice, but do not spoil them, love them but not too much. Be a gentleman, not a hopeless, sappy romantic, giving false hopes to her with sweet words. Reality is the main point in the relationship. Think about these questions:
 A) Do I Really(Reality, not fantasy) LIKE her?
 B) Do I have a good, long future with her?
 C) Can I treat her the same even if she gets older, not attractive anymore?
 D) Can I love her like she wants to?
 E) Does She wants me?
 F) Can I please her the way she wants it?
 G) Is she compatible with me? Medically speaking... Bloodlines and disease and all the syndroms...
 H) Can I protect her? Give her the life that she always wanted in a married life?
 I) Can I teach her the ways of Islam and be a good, pious husband-to-be?

It 's these questions that makes me think about relationship that makes me go crazy. She is not the one if you have second thoughts when you are with her. It becomes a bit harsh when someone you like rejects you. It is not a pretty scene actually. When they say Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, it makes no sense... Men's RAGE and a Women's LOVE is what makes opposites attract.Being macho or street smart has become a stereotpical hero of a dream man. Being sleek and chic, metrosexual but tough, It has become a false ompression of man. Just like women, we men are also being lied to that a dream women have big ass and boobs. Emotions play a big part in a relationship and not to be that blunt, but women have very unstable emotions. It drives me to a part that it sickens me, sorry to say. Please keep your head in check before talking to us. We can't understand your ways of life. The simple things that has become a mystery to men is that We Do Not Know How Does A Woman Think. Yes, you get married, but there are certain times that you become a bit blurred in a weird scenario between you and your wife. Yes, their mood changes in a snap. Thats why they need constant attention, but don't overdo it. They also need some time alone. We need some time alone, Just like from a book  I read, Men dwell in a grotto, while women lie next to a lake, looking through the reflection on her face, reminiscing . That is what women love to do. Reminisce, but men only see the future. That is a fact.
So, I just want to finish typing this thing, just that I  fell disgusted with myself writing a self-help blog on love and relationship. So, I'll leave it to you to read this and think. properly. Again, life ain't the only place you'll live. There's heaven and hell waiting for you. Arrividerci fellow readers. May we cross path again next time. Yes, this is RIZALINIUM. Being a bit relaxed, not torturing Rizal right now. He deserves a break. Seeya, fools!! Muahahaha!!!